So its pretty clear that I am not to regular at posting on here but Im hoping I will be able to more often with some time opening up in a couple weeks.. My life at the moment is pretty crazy. I work a lot and have a shit ton of school work on top of that. My weekends are completley uneventful due to wanting nothing more than a stiff drink and comfy bed when its all said and done. Heres an example of my tmrw of the week: work 6-12, lunch, shower, meeting 1-2, design 2-6, print 6:30-9:15, sorority 9:30-?, home, bed… wake repeat. Dont get me wrong I am not quite complaining I rather enjoy the busyness of it all and working 30hours a week is bringing in some nice dough as well. However with all my running I cant help but to think WAYYY too much about my future and my life choices and my relationships. Its kind of eating away at me for no reason, thus the reason for this entry I need to get a few things off my chest in a rant or spill my thoughts sort of way so that I can get back on focusing to what makes me happy. (I am happy, I think… I think I just think too much.) So the biggest question I find myself playing around in my head is what makes a relationship work? what should you expect? what are normal doubts to have? what are normal diffrences too have? Is it normal not to fight? am I thinking too much about the future and should I just worry about right now. I mean I am happy now, so why read too much into things. Or if I have these doubts am I leading myself on? Have I lost who I used to be? Is that a good thing? Who do I want to be? ugh I dont know. whoever reads this if anyone haha probably has no idea about my current relationship anyways. But I dont think that I need these questions answered its just nice to get them onto something besides my brain constantly. Focus on today. I realize now this entry makes no real sense, but it helped clear my thought so feel free to disregard : )
On a lighter note I purchased a ticket to see hanson in baltimore and am skipping a day of work and classes to devote myself to myself again, and see some lovely ladies in the process.. veryy excited and very necessary <3
that is all.
